After losing a dear sincere relative, at her very young age, and leaving 3 kids behind, I started thinking how to fill this pause, this grey moment of seeing the ugly face of emptiness , of this ''meaningless life''. This is the fact, nothing will remain in this world alive and everyone will meet the black angel, called death. Yet, we are ready to forget about the end to keep on living without knowing our end, to keep moving, without knowing where this is going to take us... Will this road -that we call life- take us to the paradise that we dream, to all the other positive thoughts that we can or cannot even imagine? Or will the other option win, that I don't wanna mention...
As no one would live it on keep thinking of the failure and going to hell, the summary of our choices and efforts, ''life'', will let us know about the end, when we seriously get there... In fact, living in hell or heaven, we don't have to wait until death comes, the negative/positive feelings and judgements we do to us, are so strong to defeat us, to shake us, or to make us fly above the clouds in this journey, that we name ''life''...
There are certain gifts for us to find, against of many disappointments we will have, their cures :
The new hopes...
The new hopes, are the new beginnings., after the previous endings..
They are the new decisions, after losing the faith of old decisions...
They are the new believings, that we attach last, like catching the tree root before you fall over the cliff.
They are the foundings of the digging the secret garden, our inner knowledge, in our deep soul... Somewhere around your heart! Of course not materialistic way...Keep digging in, hope you find a big treasure!
As the wise old say, the biggest wealth is your health (and the loved ones), you have no chance to know until you lose'em, and there is no money on earth is able to buy it back... Repeating, there is no -a lot of zero including- frickin money on earth, can buy it back.. Another brilliant, is the love... You can't buy it either... Huh, I see all the question marks fly over the heads, ''what about the dirty agreement of the weak beautiful looking people and the more powerful people who own the infinitive money?''... If that's the case, don't they buy the love? No, they buy the bodies and joys but, love is the greater level of energy which comes with the soul, that is much more above of them...
If that's the type of love you want, then go ahead for it.. But then, you will never see above of the limits of body, because you never gave a chance to find it by the heart flow...When you get face to face with the fakeness and endness of that so called love, you will have more pain and less faith... Once you have more pain, you will lose all your hope for your peace and then darker scenes are awaiting... I see, in this town, nobody cares about this type of knowledge... Then why would I care for them to waste themselves? All I wanna do, is to make my soul not to be sinked into blue, inside of the sin pool, with full of fakeness for a fool...
I don't choose to be the main character in that scenario. Instead, I would choose to be nobody for them, who loses his hopes for the fake love, and the materialistic super power that he will never go for... (Hmm, but I will keep on achieving materials as a result of my hard work for a living, it doesn't count.. :) )
Instead, I wanna have new hopes to flow with my heart, and find the love which is tested with all the difficulties of the life, and choose to be patient until finding my life long fellow traveller, while overcoming the obstacles together... Because, that's the only way to go through the tunnel of madness, to fly over the cliffs without wings, to be lightened with the real love... That's only that way I can feel united with all the universe which sings the same song.. That's the only way to disappear at the great existence of creator of universe, like a drop in the ocean.... Now tell me, can you seperate the drop from the ocean?
And yes, that's what I wanna know all about, at the next steps of my life...
