I finally got back to where I have lost my soul. I thought I lost it but somehow maybe I was wrong. I felt like I never wished to stay here forever and never thought to be back to wherever I lost the meaning of feeling. When I had the chance to see where I wished to be, then I realized that it was not meant to be, where I had to be is only where I choose to be. Where I had to be was not where I was, and never really will be about where I will finally be. I think it will only be when I'm totally peaceful inside of ME.
Let me be clear, I'm not lost, neither with my direction nor with my soul. All I needed is the fresh air and mind to find love. And I needed some romance, some more to get a deeper feeling inside of my life, since I tought I found it away where the real land of mine, I ran away to be there. When I flew over there, the land I dream was not mine as it was before. Greatest thing was, I fell in love with a beautiful and happy girl. And the worst thing was, she was in love with her beautiful and happy logic. That was the biggest difference of our love tendency. However, we felt some kind of a tiny romance and chemistry like the animals can feel the tiniest eartquakes coming.
I'm walking, walking back through my unguided journey, maybe for another half time of a life I'm learning. I'm not against of learning, but I need to speed up my levels for not to be burning,of thinking...When I'm thinking about how I made my turning ,back from my mistakes. My mistake was never about loving enough... Yet, having a small faith into my guts was not able to create enough, to move my faithful steps into my happier life.
No matter what I'm having now or not I'm having yet, I will not let that discourage my gut. But.. I still need to prepare my heart and my wallet agree on throwing the arrow of love, and kill the logical goat.
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